Risks

As I washed my hands under the scolding tap,
I thought of him and wondered whether I should or not
For who knows what will come out of it
Whether it would be harmless or harmful

Would history repeat itself?
Would I have to go through this lesson again?
Or was there no lesson before?
Will I have to hurt again to learn?

The answer lies true in my heart
So if I tell you, will you tear it apart?
Or will you keep it a secret so only you know?
Will you cover it up so it won't show?
Will you tell me what I know is true?
So I can start loving you?

I take caution because of the past.
I only have control of this present situation.
I may say no or yes, yes or no.
I know not if he waits, but if he wants.
He wants and so do I.
Secretly.