What if..

It’s all in the details. They way someone stops smiling the moment you aren’t looking. How their answers become shorter, their laughter a little bit more forced for every time. You’ll sometimes catch them with a distant look in their eyes, as if they’re staring into the big nothingness that surrounds them. Completely gone. Lost. Alone. You might find that they start distancing themselves from you, making excuses, feeding you with their little covering lies. “I’m just tired,” they’ll say. They’ll laugh it off, every single time. You should pay attention to how they start covering up their bodies, hiding every inch of their skin, hating every inch of their skin. They wont take your compliments, if so, you’ll only get a simple ‘thank you’ and they will take it all for lies. Self hate could easily be mistaken for self irony - although they say it with a smile on their face, keep your eyes open for the empty look that follows. Pay attention. Never look away. Because they are nearly impossible to spot, unless you’re one of them.

Making fun of others for fun?

Okay so i was on twitter and i saw a tweet. That person made fun of others because they have acne. I mean come on, seriously dude? H/she was like "Shut up, pizza face". That's just plain ass rude. There's a lot of people that love to make fun of others based on their physical appearance. It does not reduce their "utility", by belittling them. Even me, oh dear god, im sorry if i ever offended anyone, I have no intentions of making you pissed. Peace. 

Anyways, it's just wrong. They don't even asked to be that way. You might just end up hurting their feelings by disrespecting them. Some people however, tend to play it cool as if they don't even care people are making fun of them. Well, every negative action is only "bad" due to people's reactions to them. But in many cases, there is little reason to be upset when people make fun of you. Right? When they make fun of you, they feel happy over some weakness of yours. But is that necessarily a bad thing? It can be bad when they make fun of you in front of others and proceed to spread degrading information about you, causing other people to lose respect for you. But they could spread that information even when they're not making fun of you. So straight to the point, MAKING FUN OF OTHER PEOPLE ARE NOT COOL! -LA

A fact

"Worrying is stupid,

It's like walking around with an umbrella waiting for it to rain"

-So just smile, and don't dwell on something that's already been done and just think on the bright side and smile :)

Another step

I wouldn't be talking about 2013 because i don't really care much about it and i don't plan to talk about my "New Year's" resolutions at any circumstances at all because I'll end up thinking, thinking hard. Everyone knows that too much thinking isn't good for the mind. So it is. There are some ups and downs in year 2012, and most of it are rubbish. But I'm glad to admit that, I'm grateful and I'm still blessed because bad things happen to other people around the world.

Okay, lets get serious. Feelings. I think telling other people how they feel is pointless, you're the only one that's feeling that certain way towards another person. It's a whole different story if that person have the exact same feelings towards you like you have towards them. I mean, you can't just transfer feelings by using a force of some kind. That's just pure and utter bull. If any of you out there is able to make that happen, my faith in humanity is restored! 

Besides that, i just don't know why some people just toy around with other people's feelings. Don't you guys feel guilty that you brought tears to someone that might have cared about you? Do you feel better by doing that? Is that it? It's just wrong, complete bullshit. One does not simply act like he/she cares and just leave them as if they were nothing, especially when they leave for another person. You're just trying your luck. You give all your attention towards the one you like the most, and you just ignore the other person as if he/she never existed without knowing that he/she might have already developed feelings for you. The hope that they yearn. The trust. All gone in a blink. 

So as i was saying. Everyone has feelings. But the kind of feeling that makes you feel as if you're soul has been ripped out of your body and you feel like you have nothing to live for is the worse feeling anyone should have experience. I always feel that way throughout the years. I felt that my life is a living hell. I am obviously tired of feeling that way because of someone's actions. At a certain point, I've reached my limit. I left my old life and tried to gain confidence to start living as a normal happy person. I don't want to go back to my old life. I never plan for it to happen that way and the past keeps on haunting me every single day of my life.

So here i am now, living my current life. Even the past cast a shadow upon me. I'm still staying strong. Just look at the bright side, there's always a solution for a problem and an answer for a question. Even when something doesn't go the way you wanted it to, there's always something you can be grateful and smile about later. -LA