Sacré bleu

Hello people. It's been months since i last updated my blog. It's because I got lazy to update my blog and eventually forgotten my password. I admit that I'm quite forgetful, yes I am. Well, as you can see i managed to crack my brain and figured it all out. So far, I just got two posts, including this one. I deleted all of my old posts from 2010 just because I feel that it's a little cuckoo and unnecessary. I mean, let bygones be bygones shall we? Take a chill pill lads, there's no harm in starting anew :)

So let's start with my recent updates. I've finished my spm examinations and I'm currently rocking the homeless look everyday at home till someone asks me out. Despite my laziness I do go out, rarely. I'm not completely lifeless just because I sit at home, on the contrary. As if I'm waiting  for a miracle to fall from the sky. It's been nearly a month since school ended, and I'm not ashamed in admitting that I am the most unproductive human being standing on this side of the earth. I wake up in the evening every single day. This is sad. I mean I will definitely be morning person if morning is past 1 p.m.

I usually keep myself busy in many ways for example having a movie marathon. Where else to watch a good movie online besides movie25.com right? Watching movies have always been a favorite past time of mine. I do lose track of time now and then, but it's worth it..i think. Enough of my movie enthusiast. Last night, I handed in my resume for work. So now I'm waiting for their call. I'm just hoping that'll i get the job. If i don't, I'll be devastated and maybe a bit frustrated. I don't want to sit at home and be a sack of potatoes, It's boring for heaven's sake. Some people might find it awesome that chilling at home all day after I've finished school. News flash juniors, it sucks! I can't meet my friends as much as I used to anymore. They mean the world to me. Besides that, I miss studying. Yes, I admit it. My brain is not progressing as much as it does during my school days. I feel stupid. I don't get to see my teachers anymore, I don't get to hear all their nags about not studying and not finishing homework or what am I going to do in my life. Hm. 

So basically, that's it.So here I sit, with my pajamas, instead of sleeping. Pondering what'll I do next in my miserable life. Thanks for reading -LA

Lonesomeness kills

loneliness. solitariness. deserted

Most people always say life wouldn't be as great without the people concluded in it. In my personal opinion, it would be better if there isn't anyone or i might as well  trade my feelings for a stray cat. It could have been much more delightful than ever that way perhaps. I wouldn't care for the world about anything that matters to everyone, anyone. What matters most is me. Selfishness. I wouldn't care about it though because throughout the years I've suffered a lot of unwanted and emotional events that tore my soul apart and no one cared. People come and go as they pleased without turning back, leaving the ones left behind with high hopes and powerful feelings for them to come back. Maybe they didn't realized that they made a great impact on their lives. I'm done with people leaving me. This kind of pain is way excruciating compared by being stabbed in the gut. I've been there, and i don't want to feel that way again.  Forgive me, if I've been a nuisance to some people. It's because no one took the time to figure me out. That's all. -LA